Stephen and I wanted to give you a health update. As all of you know, I have dealt with breast cancer for a long, long long time. Claire was 8 months old, Benjamin 2 and Oliver just 5 years old. Now add 18 years to each of their ages and there they go.

About a year and half ago there was a small area of cancer picked up by a pet scan on my rib. I had radiation to the area, and then did about 6 months of chemo...fun fun fun.

I now have several new areas of cancer in my bones. The cancer is breast cancer that has moved and mutated over time. I will have a plan of treatment by this week. There are a ton of treatments available. Of course there

is never a good time to have this disease, but there are a lot more treatment options out there now. I am really looking forward to having a plan. It is the lack of knowing that has made me crazy. Having a plan will ground me and allow me to plan my summer.

I have written this email because I never want my disease to be whispered about. Please share this email with anyone who you think might want to know. I believe disease, whether it be cancer, diabetes, neurological disease, or mental health, should not be treated with shame or secrets. I want people to know that I am living a remarkably common human experience. As my oncologist says, I am a really healthy person with a little bit of cancer. :) If you see me, I look the same. I still ski, hike, binge watch TV shows, cook. I am still a mother, wife, daughter, sister, cousin, friend and owner of two crazy dogs. So, I am a person that is not entirely defined by these fucking crazy cancer cells...

Please know that I have friends, family, acupuncturists, massage therapists, spiritual advisers, dogs (i.e. questionable spiritual advisors), real people spiritual advisers, complementary medicine specialists, oncologists, psychiatrists and a Rabbi, who also happens to be a comedian, on speed dial. However, if you think of something or someone that I can not live without, please let me know. I am wrapped in love and warmth. I want to thank you for all of your love, flowers, music,walks, sail boat rides, notes, slippers, candles, food and everything else.

Also please know that when you see me at Cal Mart, skiing, or at parties, that I may not want to talk about this whole shit show.. It is not because I am not thinking about it. Distraction is often the best medicine.

Also, I wanted to send this email out as soon as I could. I realized despite loving all my people so much, I did not have everyone's email, so please forgive me if this is forwarded to you, and if you could get me your email that would be wonderful. I do not know when I will next update, but the thought of a blog has popped into my head..I really never wanted to write one, but now I am a little bit curious.

I love you all so deeply and I feel your love holding me.